The voice within me will keep silent no longer. For so very long have I sought to keep it silent and isolated from myself and thus from others. It was at first, an easy task. It would speak within me and make known politely its need to be heard. I would then respond politely as well, telling this entity within that it would do well to sit quietly and not make a ruckus for its time was not yet come. And in the beginning, what lived within me accepted my explanation, perhaps understanding that I was in growth and unsure of myself.
We went on this way for many years, the Voice and I, living in what one could call an uncomfortable truce. I did not care for him because to get to know him would mean having to change and grow into someone I felt I was not. And as for this fellow residing within me? He was patiently persistent, ever nudging me and reminding me of his presence. A very annoying situation, to be sure.
As time carried forward, the nudges I spoke of became more forceful and more insistent. That Voice within was gaining strength and resonance, all the while becoming louder and more distinct. We argued often and vehemently, I must say. The Voice would tell me to listen in order that it be heard, its message to be given. In turn, I would scream within my mind and let this intruder know in no uncertain terms that he was mistaken and had chosen in error the vessel through which to speak. More and more frequently however, I found myself losing the argument within me, no matter how strongly I presented my case. When I lost the debate on those days, I would slide away into the darkness of my room and commiserate with myself. And so this became the next uneasy chapter of our relationship.
Now we come into the present day, into the World Of The Now. That undulating voice within has become a roar in my mind and my Spirit. The noise it is making has become deafening as it battles within my mind. The disquiet it is causing me now is beyond comprehension. In truth, it is no longer simply that voice within, a nuisance that I can hush and ignore for yet another day. No, no and again I say no! It has instead given birth to itself, if you will. It is not just a voice now for it has matured into what can only called “the force within.” It has become something now that if ignored would certainly bring to me my own demise. And I speak here not of a death in the physical but rather in a spiritual sense which is really much more serious a condition, yes?
It’s odd, isn’t it? We so often fight against and within ourselves to keep from becoming who it is we were meant to be. What strange creatures we humans can be! The time, the years spent wrestling with myself have kept me from the happiness intended for me. It is only now that I have come to terms with that voice within which has only been looking towards what good could be brought my way while at the same time blessing others. I do believe an apology should be given to the patience of my Soul. Yet how does one apologize to one’s self? A most curious question indeed.
We are closing out now this chapter which was before and turning the page now into what is indeed the book that is the Truth of Life. The Voice and I have come to terms with one another and have actually formed an alliance which no man can break. Our voices now blend into one which is harmonious and therefore able to serve the needs of this, our world. The road that lies before us is new and uncertain. Yet strangely enough, we embrace this uncertainty with the eager expectation of the good that will follow. You see, it is an adventure that the Voice and I see before us for Life is an adventure indeed! And you there!……Yes, I am speaking to you, to the one who is reading this rather strange words here, words where I reference my inner voice as a separate entity. It is to you that I now ask this next question…….Would you not be strong of heart and of mind and would you not come travel this new road with us? What is that you say? You are fearful of stepping up and onto this new and different highway? I have wonderful news for you then! For you see, fear is a natural response to change of any sort. So, embrace that fear and invite in the change that calls to you even now. Let us travel now this grand road and bring our world into the change it so desperately requires. Take my hand now and let us breathe in this beautiful occurrence called Life! Here we are and here we go, my friends!
To all those reading this and to all others as well, it is my prayer that you attend to that voice within yourselves and heed well the message it brings to you. Waste not your days and your energies in the attempt to silence it for that voice is your compass as well as your counsel. It was gifted you by Divinity and with good reason. Be wise, be prudent and listen well so that your Life be one of abundance and blessing for yourselves and for those whose lives you are privileged to touch upon. Take care with yourselves each day and always!
Authored by William J. Thompson, Jr.