He wasn’t sure. He wasn’t sure how long he had been sitting there. At times it seemed as though it had been a long while but he wasn’t sure. And at other times it seemed it as though it had been just a few moments but he wasn’t sure. Quite frankly, the only thing he was certain about was that he wasn’t sure. And that disturbed him greatly. This much he knew for sure. His life it seemed had been in a sort of limbo, stuck mid-way between living and not living. He was very certain that he had been in this state for a long time. But he was unsure as to just how long that had been for. And he wasn’t sure how to make his way back to the land of the living, so long it had been since he left. There were occasions when he thought that surely it would be easier to simply let go and leave, to try to find his way back. But then that other part of him would whisper that he really, really needed to be sure that this was what he wanted to do for he could end up in a worse state than he was in presently. So in listening to the voice of reason, he would forgo his decision and wait for the day to pass because he just wasn’t sure. But now he was unsure if this business of waiting was such a great idea after all. To sit through Life as he had been could not be wise nor could it be prudent. And why was this so? Because there is no neutral in life. No one can sit through Life because Life moves forward always. We either move forward with its flow or we drown in its wake. There is no in between. We’ve all heard it said, haven’t we? “Oh, he’s straddling the fence on that issue.” Yet the truth of it is that there is no truth in that statement at all. I looked up that phrase and to straddle the fence means to support both sides of an issue. So, in reality one who “straddles” has no need to decide. On the surface, this almost seems convenient, to have the luxury of pleasing everyone while benefitting no one, least of all ones self.
Again I say this evening, there is no such thing as neutrality in Life. One cannot straddle the fence or better put, not make a decision because in not deciding, we have already chosen, yes? This is the quandary our young hero in this piece had found himself in, caught betwixt and between as it were. His inability to make a decision had, over time put him into a position of becoming unsure, not just in one area but in all facets of his Life. He wasn’t sure. And in the beginning, it seemed such an easy route to travel. After all, the young man had no accountability to anyone and better still, he had no accountability to Life itself! Everything was okay because no matter what view was taken, all views were acceptable. However, as his life continued (for Life stands still for no one) and the weeks turned into months and the months into years, this fellow no longer quite so young found himself at an impasse. And you almost felt sorry for him because he had hardly a clue as to how he had reached this particular juncture since he had deemed all roads as acceptable. For you see, with all roads being acceptable be they right or wrong, he had chosen to travel no road at all. And he had done so because he wasn’t sure. By the way, do you know the definition of the word impasse? I had only a general idea so I took at look at how Mr. Webster defined this word. The word impasse is defined as “a position or situation from which there is no escape; a deadlock or standstill; a road or way that has no outlet”. And all of this as a result of being unsure. Think about this for a moment. I am sure that this individual started out his Life differently and saw perhaps the journey that lay before him as one full of adventure and of great promise. Yet he had allowed the gift of surety to become the burden of uncertainty and because of this, the grand Life his Creator had destined for him could not and would not come to fruition. Worse still, those whose lives would have been blessed and enriched by the completion of this young mans destiny would never come to know what he was meant to bring to this world simply because he wasn’t sure.
Now to all of this, you may say something like, “Well, a person cannot always be sure about everything! We all have times when we feel unsure for we are only human!” And to that I would say that you are entirely and completely correct, my friend. But you see, the error comes in when we become rooted in the Land of Uncertainty by relying solely on our own emotions and intellect. This is when we lose our way and become unsure. This is when the tentacles of uncertainty and indecision quietly wrap themselves around the Spirit we carry within, slowly constricting and tightening and all the while cutting us off from the Divine oxygen needed for growth and survival. It is a process which is incremental by design. And as such, we are most often unaware that it is in process, if you will. In this way, our lives are rendered useless and become stagnant which disallows our true Purpose to be realized and fulfilled. Is this making a degree of sense here this evening? I would hope that this is so. For you see, my friends…….That fellow spoken of here? He is me and I am him. And believe me, this is not an admission that I take enjoyment in sharing. The Life meant for me, that Life which is one of fulfillment and truth and blessing to those round’ about me has been taken over by a life that is not really life at all. I have not been sure for quite some time now and therein lies the dilemma. Yet I do know the solution and am now travelling the road that will bring me to that solution. And as I travel now, I am becoming less unsure and so much more certain of the road beneath my feet. My friends, may I assure you that this is indeed a good feeling for it is most definitely just that. As you may know, one of the universal laws set forth by our Creator is that when one moves forward with surety in the direction of their purpose or dream, Life itself bids them welcome and moves along with them. This does not mean however that there will be no adverse conditions somewhere along the Path. But it does mean that overcoming such adversity will give the traveler the opportunity for growth and will also make the final destination just that much sweeter and rewarding, to be sure! With your kind permission, I would like to make mention of one other thing. I’ve not put pen to paper in quite some time, this due to my allowing day-to-day life to keep me from what is a True Life. I was struggling along this evening on a different piece of work, determined to grease my “writers wheels”, if you will. After about an hour, I made some type of computer error and botched what I was working on in good fashion. Frustrated and ready to simply hang it up, I came across this “He wasn’t sure” that I had made note of months ago. It seemed to draw me in this evening and so here we are. It has been said that the coincidences in Life are the Creators way of remaining anonymous. Perhaps this is the truth of it. In any event, I trust that this was of some benefit to someone tonight. Please do not give in to the web of uncertainty in your Life for left unchecked, it will cause you to lose your Life and I mean that in every sense of the word. Rely not on your own understanding and wisdom especially when there is Divine direction awaiting you always. All one needs do is ask for it and with a sincere heart, be ready to receive it as well. And do be sure of this as well………If you are unsure of what to do, look towards your Creator and He will guide you to your next step. This is something of which you may be sure. Have a good night and a grand tomorrow. May the blessings of the coming days be yours to share!
Authored by William J. Thompson, Jr.